As a non-white person, you grow up and live in France, literally hounded by the question "d'où viens-tu?" (where are you from?). Something in your physical appearance seems to loudly yell "alien" while the Republic religiously professes equality of all citizens regardless of their ethnic background.
You grow up in a country where history (as molded by patriarchs such as Ernest Renan or Jules Michelet) intimately ties pride and inclusion in the national group to a shared history. But when you look back at the way we weaved and created that history, that national narrative, there is little that explains why people who look like me are part of the group, how long they've been part of the group, or even what they contributed to the group.
You grow up in a country that claims to be blind to color, but a country that asks you to go back "where you came from," the minute you are deemed ungrateful or unruly because you are asking too many questions. Questions like "If we are all equal before the law, and if race 'does not exist' in France, what is it in us that makes us 'probationary citizens,' people whose citizenship must be checked over and over, people whose Frenchness could be taken away, as proposed by former presidents Sarkozy and Hollande?"
So, growing up with these questions, I figured that the only way for me to find answers was to go back where these questions had been molded: back to History and its manufactured silences.
In my work, I reflect on French identity, on its many components, on its history and (because it is my specialty), I focus on the place that race and ethnicity occupy in the articulation of a set of questions such as: Who is French? How was our national memory constructed? What is the impact of this historical shaping of the "national narrative" and on very contemporary processes of integration or exclusion from the national community? How do we acquire, process, and spread the words that say inclusion or exclusion?
I am often accused of belonging to the camp of those who fan a "race war." This is interesting because people who look like me did not come up with the concept of race in Europe, a concept that was actually used for centuries to wage a war on us. We are often accused of being "intellectual terrorists" who want to destroy pages of the national narrative. It is actually quite the opposite. In my work, I have come to realize that the pages addressing my family's trajectory in France were not missing, they had just been glued off. Our work today is to patiently reattach these pages. This effort does not take away from the history of this Nation. It just makes it more complete. We are bringing forgotten and silences stories to the forefront.